crushed

I really can't seem to get it. NO matter how many times I told myself, I can't seem to not hope.

Trying to look at it from a positive angle is rather tiring. Sure, we're all in the same boat, but I don's want to be in that particular boat.

Can I say that I'm still waiting for my ship to come in?

It doesn't look like this ride will be very smooth, and there's no good place for me to stop without losing anything.

I can say that it's meant to be that way, so what can I do to change that?

Perhaps I'm not that powerless to change my fate, somehow or the other. I have to learn how to focus.