Tainted with Blood

There's a sense of indescribable pain that appears to be stabbing my chest each time I see any news related to the present war in Gaza.
Buildings reduced to mere rubbles and dust, roads cracked and bodies lifeless, stained with blood and wounds. The sight of faces - so human, yet some held determination, some apathetic, others wet by tears. There were also those who could only break down as they witness the departure of their loved ones with their own two eyes.
It's like there is no more trace of humanity in the area, and I'm not just blaming Israel.
Sure, they're at fault for overdoing it. So far, 919 Palestinians killed, and Israeli? They're only down by two digits.
If Hamas is really using human shields, then they're as dirty as those Israel scums. Don't give me any excuse saying that it's out of desperation.
The two sides should just forget about ego.
It's no longer a question of who started it, who is right and who's wrong, and who should stop all this fighting first.
Likewise, the religious undertone is overshadowed by the humanitarian aspect of it all.
Perhaps the only way to cease this madness is to put all their weapons to ruins, and see if both parties would want to continue the bickering using their fists alone.
Oh, by the way, if the U.S. is still wondering where the heck are those alleged WMD that they've been looking for that they had to bomb Iraq to force themselves into the country, I think they'd better look in Israel instead.

I can only sympathise with those who support Israel's move in the war. You poor, poor creatures, blinded by your own ignorance, stupidity and misplaced compassion.

There'll be a continuation to this one day, when my threshold is exceeded, as what has happened today.

Current Music: Ghost Love Score - Nightwish

Filler entry

Indeed. I should just enjoy what little time I have during this break.
Such enjoyment includes immersing myself in pages and pages of Skip Beat! manga, which is relatively more entertaining than the anime version. And this is coming from someone who usually avoids shoujo's like plague.
I am totally shipping RenxKyoko! Finally, a female lead that doesn't bug me!
As for the list that I've compiled earlier - after some adjustments, only Kuroshitsuji and Hakushaku to Yousei are left after the rest are cancelled out. And, the newest addition to it would be Amatsuki. Makes me regret it for not buying it when I had the chance...

Current Music: Speed of Flow - The Rodeo Carburettor

Looking Within

Until now, I've always wondered if I would ever find salvation within me.

Is it right to grumble and complain when what I thought should be mine was grabbed away from me at the end of the day? Or should I point to my own inability to be a little more proactive in trying to create my own future, rather than playing safe by being a mere spectator, sitting by the sidelines and hoping against hope that the ball will end up in my field sooner or later?
Perhaps my own "values" is at fault. Perhaps I'm too stringent in having things my way rather than dabbling with danger a bit here and there. My "high-risk behaviour" is decidedly misplaced.

Of course, I am glad that good things that I'd like for myself happen to my friends. Besides, God granted them that Himself, who am I question?

My only consolation is the assurance that perhaps my time has yet to come.

And that the best thing for me now is what I already own thus far.

Am I even worthy of those?

Is it right to claim loss when I have not even owned it in the first place?

If I'm feeling all right, why do I still get sore from this pain?

Even when I want to run away from everything, there is something that pulls me back and binds me to where I started.

Is it okay to just dream? Or will it only tear whatever is left of me to shreds?

Current Music: No Air (Future Residents Remix) - Jordin Sparks featuring Chris Brown

P/s: Kazoku e, tadaima.