Intermission #39

"O you who are patient! Bear a little more, just a little more remains" ~ Ibn Qayyim

Dear God, it feels like there's still some way to go for me to finish this journey - my current posting for one thing, my entire role as a lowly house officer is another.

Especially when people I know are already a step above me.

I won't lie - there's slight awkwardness involved.

Dear God, I feel too much it'll probably be the downfall of me.

Buck up, self! Jangan nak emo sangat, boleh tak? Pfft~!

Current Music: Science & Faith - The Script

Intermission #38

1. Ramadhan is here again, Alhamdulillah.

Though there is some sadness in me knowing that my late grandfather is no longer around, both for the fasting and the incoming Syawal.

I try not to make a big deal out of sahur and breaking fast solo, but there is no helping it when I falter once in awhile.

Here's to praying that all will be well - my making good use of this Ramadhan, finishing my Surgical posting with a bang, among them.

Happy Ramadhan, people.

2. They say some things are better left unsaid.

But what if one never says something that another expects from him or her?

They say actions speak louder than words.

And that a smile is a universal language in its own right.

Am I being selfish if I were to ask for more?

Or maybe the signs were all there, but I'm just too careful, too negative to acknowledge them.

...because I'm just one dense ignoramus.

Current Music: Stronger (What Doesn't Kill You) - Kelly Clarkson

Defeated

1. I want to give up.

It's like I can't say or do anything without being judged, and my intentions being misunderstood.

Am I speaking in some alien language, and are my thoughts so out of this world?

Am I so insignificant that I can be trampled to the ground just like that?

Why does everything seem foreign to me all of a sudden?

I condemn myself enough, there is no need for anyone to share that luxury anymore. Especially when they know nothing.

...If only I could give up without compromising anything.

2. It's all a matter of time, is it not?

They say good things come to those who wait.

Others say that time and tide wait for no man.

Which principle should I subscribe to, pray tell?

Only time will tell.

...This is going nowhere, honestly. Dear God.

Current Music: Pumped Up Kicks - Foster the People