Lost

End of the block exam for my first clinical posting. And suffice to say, it was screwed on an epic scale.
But we're not going to talk about that. No sirree.
Nor are we going to talk about how I drove back.

I was just checking out Tun Dr. M's blog. Not really out of curiosity - but rather, it was more of boredom.
To whomever who are following his blog, my advice is this: The comments section is hardly worth reading, period.
Simply because if you're planning to make your reading and your time worthwhile, the comments can hardly appease you. They're just a huge waste of time.
The fourth PM's writings are worth a lot when they're not too infused with emotions, I daresay. For instance, when he touched on the economics, history, and the games that politicians play and the words that they twist out of context.
The comments, most of the time, are only by those who only voice out their blind admiration for the PM, most of which sounds a lot like "sucking up".

Maybe now is not the best time to blog. I'm like the centre for all the negative energy in this part of the world...

Flipped

So I'm back in Kuantan, although not in campus. Yet.
What have I achieved from the oh-too-short Raya break? Other then my successful attempts at cutting watermelons open (would you believe it? I've never done anything like cutting watermelons before...) and the sudden peaked interest in the current American political arena (or rather, how the people are criticizing Republican Party's Sarah Palin) and the realisation that I have this "fear" of ketupat and my feeble attempts at studying...mmm, that doesn't leave anything much for me, does it?
But the break did give me time to refresh and to reconstruct my perspective. Perspective on many things, in fact.
Now the issue is whether I can actually carry out my plans of reformation, rather than just leaving them on an intangible blueprint.
Yosh.
Reality has a way of knocking back some sense into you, you know?

Then and Now

Ramadhan's over. Then the regret for not making good of use of it comes and haunt me like it's never going to leave me alone...
But that's not the main reason I'm here, again.

In all frankness, I am simply not in the mood to celebrate 'Eid tomorrow, nor am I looking forward to being dragged around...
It's just my mood, so if I know what's good for me, all the negative vibes should disappear by dawn.

At times, I just want to shrink myself in one corner and think about things - things that should not be giving me palpitations or guilt or headaches or chest pain.
But when those things do come and flood my thoughts, I'm forced to seek solitude.
God, this makes me sound like a dysfunctional loner...

I need some time to straighten out my train of thoughts. And 'Eid is not giving me that.

Then again, maybe all I need is some sleep...

Current Music: Itsuka no Merry Christmas (Remix) - B'z

P/s: How wrong is that? A Christmas song amidst 'Eid (again, since I did the same during the last 'Eid...)? Would you believe me if I say that I'm allergic to Raya songs?