Filler entry

Indeed. I should just enjoy what little time I have during this break.
Such enjoyment includes immersing myself in pages and pages of Skip Beat! manga, which is relatively more entertaining than the anime version. And this is coming from someone who usually avoids shoujo's like plague.
I am totally shipping RenxKyoko! Finally, a female lead that doesn't bug me!
As for the list that I've compiled earlier - after some adjustments, only Kuroshitsuji and Hakushaku to Yousei are left after the rest are cancelled out. And, the newest addition to it would be Amatsuki. Makes me regret it for not buying it when I had the chance...

Current Music: Speed of Flow - The Rodeo Carburettor

Looking Within

Until now, I've always wondered if I would ever find salvation within me.

Is it right to grumble and complain when what I thought should be mine was grabbed away from me at the end of the day? Or should I point to my own inability to be a little more proactive in trying to create my own future, rather than playing safe by being a mere spectator, sitting by the sidelines and hoping against hope that the ball will end up in my field sooner or later?
Perhaps my own "values" is at fault. Perhaps I'm too stringent in having things my way rather than dabbling with danger a bit here and there. My "high-risk behaviour" is decidedly misplaced.

Of course, I am glad that good things that I'd like for myself happen to my friends. Besides, God granted them that Himself, who am I question?

My only consolation is the assurance that perhaps my time has yet to come.

And that the best thing for me now is what I already own thus far.

Am I even worthy of those?

Is it right to claim loss when I have not even owned it in the first place?

If I'm feeling all right, why do I still get sore from this pain?

Even when I want to run away from everything, there is something that pulls me back and binds me to where I started.

Is it okay to just dream? Or will it only tear whatever is left of me to shreds?

Current Music: No Air (Future Residents Remix) - Jordin Sparks featuring Chris Brown

P/s: Kazoku e, tadaima.

Fogged

"Aim for success, not perfection. Never give up your right to be wrong, because then you will lose the ability to learn new things and move forward with your life" ~ Dr. David M. Burns

Many a time have I been shrouded in questions and doubts - Do I really belong where I am right now? Will I be able to survive what awaits me in the future?
Allow me to say this freely - Never expect to receive compassion in this profession. Heck, in this world.
It's a cruel world, people.

Pardon my state of negativism. It ain't easy to obliterate, especially after my eyes are opened to how the real world is.

...Because that's the only way for me to maintain my sanity for the time being. I've tried to adopt optimism, but it just falls flat.

Current Music: Your Beauty - Hamza Robertson